This semester has been the toughest, ever, in my struggle to climb up the academic ladder. I've never felt this lost before. First was the Literature module which I totally abhor, now, this sociolinguistics module, too, is pushing me to my very limits.

What is the point of all this? At least, for Literature, you know that it is to qualify us intellectually and emotionally to become Literature teachers. So then, what good is sociolinguistics? I really don't give a fuck about what languages other societies use.

Isn't it supposed to be better?

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Spending money suddenly becomes more difficult, especially when you start thinking for the future.

I want to buy a set of digital drums. Yamaha seems to be earning a lot of my money.

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1. Reference (anaphor, cataphor, ellipsis, etc)
2. Semantics (homonymy, polysemy, etc)
3. Conversational Implicature (maxims, calculating implicature, etc)
4. Locutionary, illocutionary, perlocutionary acts
5. Felicity conditions
6. IFID's
7. Direct/indirect speech

Anything I left out?

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Totally no mood to study. I really want to study for Pragmatics, but it just seems as though it won't be happening till it's like one day before the exam.

I'm such a procrastinator.

The spirit is willing, but all else is weak.

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Sometimes, reality just hits you so hard you can't swallow it down.

Dear friends, wake up. Please.

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Some things in life are just beyond my comprehension.

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I suddenly miss those times in primary school when we brought games to school to play after exams.

If possible, I would like to relive those time.

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Seems like the old problem is back. It is always near the exam period when I start doing everything but studying.

Not good. Not for this semester, please.

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Fucking drilling.

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It's just so weird 'calculating' and writing out your thought process in black and white. I really don't understand pragmatics.

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I've received quite a number of good comments for the recent gig at House of Rock, and it makes me feel real good.

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I know I say this all the time, but Singapore is NOT a gracious society. The middle-aged, especially, lack a hell lot of social grace.

Thankfully, the younger generations aren't like that. Well, most aren't. I guess you could call this the success of education.

Now, if only the parents would cooperate.

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Still my favourite girl.

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super weird.

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my favourite girl. :)

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The power of the word 'Death' is amazing.

To be continued.

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Dear God,

I wish my music had a purpose. I wish my purpose was You.

I've been playing in my band for over a year, and at times, I do struggle if I should stay in, or out. We've been playing in schools, outdoors and even a pub, but somehow I don't feel like I've achieved anything. My keyboarding skills are mediocre (well, so are my other music skills). I know it, but I just can't seem to get rid of the bad habits. The band's been asking me to attend this band workshop thing that's been going on for a while now (they are regulars there), but I just don't feel comfortable. I don't need people to teach me how to jam, nor how to 'feel' music. I know my own technical faults. What i really need is help with how to use my keyboard. My keyboard is a pretty need machine, yet I'm under-utilising it so much.

Then again, do I really want to play the keyboard? I've explored this topic many times - I'm a jack-of-all-trades, but what good is it when I don't have an instrument that I can play darn well with. I wouldn't mind trading all my music knowledge if I could just focus and be good at playing one instrument.

I see no purpose in the band. Seriously.

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I dreamt I flew like one of those chinese martial artist, escaping from a mob of PE people, and then ended up befriending them and ended up at some overseas hotel.

Out of this world man. Maybe that's why it's a dream.

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I actually titled the essay 'toughest essay yet' and handed it in.

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